Discovery through Recovery

Picking Up Where I Left Off

Hey everyone, I’m Marni. A grateful believer in Jesus who still struggles with codependency, dependency and anxiety. It’s been nearly two months since my last post, and I’m picking up where I left off. It bugs me that I’ve allowed this to go on for this long…again. Yet, I’m not beating myself up like I […]

The Art of Courage

Hey everyone, I’m Marni. A grateful believer in Jesus who struggles with codependency, dependency and anxiety. I start my posts off like this now, because through my recovery process the past 6 years, I’ve learned this gives me an accountability to focus on my victories, strength and hope all the while encountering moments of complete […]

Knowing God’s Calling

  Hey everyone. It’s Marni again. Still a grateful believer…still struggling with codependency, dependency and anxiety…and still thanking God for my recovery from these struggles. Once upon a time, I thought I knew it all. Once upon a time, I thought I had it all figured out. Once upon a time, I felt this life […]

Struggling Memoirs: June 15, 2015

Hey everyone. I’m Marni…I’m still a grateful believer…and I’m still struggling…but I’m thankful for Jesus to help me through my struggles of codependency, dependency and anxiety. The more I try to write today…the more I’m finding my reallllly ugly feelings seething through each word. Transparency is supposed to be about revealing the light that shines […]

Boundaries and Codependency

Hi, everyone. I’m Marni…I’m still grateful for Jesus in my life…and I’m still struggling at times…but I’m still walking out my steps [in Christ] everyday. Lately, my life has been turned a bit upside down concerning boundaries. Prior to going on vacation to the beach with my immediate family (husband and son), The Holy Spirit […]

Re-discovering my life through recove...

Hi everyone. My name is Marni, and I’m a grateful believer in Jesus who struggles with codependency, dependency and anxiety. These are the very words I speak every Friday night when I go to my Celebrate Recovery meetings. Why am I in this Christ-centered 12-step recovery program? Because, just like my salvation, I realized I […]

Who’s Really the Enemy?

Passing by a particular denominational church recently triggered memories to a moment when I felt deep pain. Not because of the church, but because of how I was treated by my family concerning a boy I once was interested in dating who attended this church denomination. He really was interested in dating me as well, and when […]

Good Girls Aren’t Supposed to H...

“I could not find a book that explained that this phenomenon of feeling unmothered could be a real deal and that here could be mothers who are not maternal. Nor could I find a book that discussed the conflicted feelings that their daughters have about these mothers, the frustrated love, and even sometimes hatred. Because good […]

FMF: Welcome and Abuse

Welcome. Such a simple word…but again, we must look deeper to really understand the complexity of this simplicity. When I think of the word welcome, I think of acceptance. Pure and utter acceptance. Considering welcome means “one whose coming suits another’s will or wish“, it goes hand in hand with acceptance. Yet, when coming from […]

All It Takes Is One

Finding people who are “like” us in this world can almost feel as if we’re looking for a needle in a haystack… …or a million haystacks. It’s heartbreaking the silence that is created from emotional abuse…and in fact, any abuse. For abuse is the misuse of someone and/or something. In the case of abuse of people […]

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