Running Out of Reasons

May 8, 2013 — Leave a comment

“Don’t you realize that in a race everyone runs, but only one person gets the prize? So run to win!” – 1 Cor 9:24 (NLT)

This morning as I woke to see my husband’s face, I found myself staring at him and thinking to myself, “I really love this man…and I wish he could stay home today.” Upon sharing this with him, his groggy face retorted, “I wish I could, too.” I then found myself having a song run through my head that I heard for the first time ever in Spanish last night when I took him and our son out to eat…this one: Continue Reading…

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What Narcissism Is…And Isn’t.

May 7, 2013 — Leave a comment

Mirrors by Lori JacksonReflections can be tricky things, especially concerning the adult child of a narcissistic upbringing. They can:

…pose as absolute threats to the inner child seeking to hide away from the pain that persists far into adulthood.

…help us hide from the deeply woven emotional pains of the heart that need to be healed; spawning the continuance of narcissism in generational bondage…

…or they can be cathartic tools to help us break the prison cells that we put around us; heralding health and healing.

The wild, crazy thing about narcissism though is that it usually becomes the center of much jesting in society; and friends, this is hurtful, not helpful.

Narcissism at it’s core is simply, Continue Reading…

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Update Time! (vLog)

May 6, 2013 — Leave a comment

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Letting Pain Fall Into Love

April 30, 2013 — Leave a comment

Rejection.

Infliction of heartache.

Unkind words.

Plots to separate me and my husband, my family.

Threats to harm.

Harsh good-byes.

These things, I’ve experienced and endured with blood-lined family for nearly 16 years.

They hurt, no doubt. However, as I’ve been learning for some time now…it’s not that pain happens, Continue Reading…

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Be Choosy with Your Pickin’s

April 24, 2013 — Leave a comment

Last autumn, I took my son apple pickin’ (hey, I’m in the South, so it’s pickin’) for the first time ever. Honestly enough, it was my first ever time, too.

Upon arriving, I experienced a welling up of anticipation to have an adventure with my son seeking out ripe fruit to take home for us to enjoy and to preserve for the upcoming holidays. I had to explore, I had to discern, I had to find…and find I did.

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Mirror, Mirror

April 23, 2013 — Leave a comment

I’ve had a difficult time most of my life enjoying looking in mirrors; so much to the point, none exist in the bedroom space where my husband and I sleep. It’s been hard, because I’ve had a very difficult time most of my life simply just liking myself…never mind liking the reflection I see back to my eyes.

Yet, today, I stand in a very different space… Continue Reading…

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I Feel…I Am

April 17, 2013 — Leave a comment

I feel ugly.

I feel wretched.

I feel inept.

I feel like a failure.

What I share here today, all reveals how I feel about myself – in the flesh – as a mother.

A mom.

A mommy.

A mama. Continue Reading…

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Healing Space Isn’t Alone Space

April 12, 2013 — Leave a comment

I need to be alone.

Harsh words spoken from the roots of brokenness. Pain.

To be alone means we allow ourselves to wallow. To live more pain than necessary.

To be alone allows our minds to wander to a place they ought never to go…into the pain.

To feel pain is one thing, friends…

…to go into it, and live it, is quite another.

Being alone Continue Reading…

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Being vs. Doing

April 11, 2013 — Leave a comment

Confirmations come in threes…

…at least for me, they do.

For just about a month now, I’ve been hearing the message revealed in similar ways twice before the very, “to the point” message I received today.

“Slow down, Marni. Just be.”

Don’t do…just be.

Grow.

Heal.

Stay put.

Bloom Continue Reading…

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Pain Reveals Life

April 9, 2013 — Leave a comment

I welcome pain.

I realize that is a boldly odd statement to make, but I do. I welcome it, because it has a purpose in life.

Since the fall in the Garden of Eden, humanity has been seeking ways to avoid pain…yet, ironically enough, the ways we seek to avoid pain, usually bring about greater pain into our lives. Continue Reading…

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